Run while you talk to me. // Phone call to Campbell part 2
Posted: Thu Aug 29, 2024 11:09 pm
No caller ID. I pick up.
It’s Dymuntz, she asks if I’ve started my run.
I say that I’ve just ended it and I quite literally had just stepped off the treadmill to take her phone call so I wasn’t lying.
She says to keep running. And I was like “….okay?”
She says I want you to talk to me while you’re on the treadmill.
Kinda nervous laughter on my end, but I agreed and said okay. I put my phone up to the treadmill so she could hear the beeping noise that it makes when it starts and I got it up to speed, and she could hear my weird breathing lol.
She asked me what my fears were.
I told her that the first one I told them when I first started the experience was probably losing a loved one, but the most recent one I had right now was gaining weight.
I think she asked me why, to which I responded that I’ve been super heavy before and I hated the way I looked. I’ve been super thin, and I loved the way I looked. I told her I just felt more insecure and unattractive when I weighed more versus less.
She asked me why I felt that way and I told her I looked better lighter weights, and I thought I just looked more attractive and that people would like me more in general.
She asked what I think besides losing weight would fix that.
I said being kinder to myself, focusing on speaking nicer to and loving myself.
She said that she felt that that was a true answer.
Then I said I hope so, meaning that I hope If I actually did it that it would hopefully work.
And then she said you can stop now and hung up .
It’s Dymuntz, she asks if I’ve started my run.
I say that I’ve just ended it and I quite literally had just stepped off the treadmill to take her phone call so I wasn’t lying.
She says to keep running. And I was like “….okay?”
She says I want you to talk to me while you’re on the treadmill.
Kinda nervous laughter on my end, but I agreed and said okay. I put my phone up to the treadmill so she could hear the beeping noise that it makes when it starts and I got it up to speed, and she could hear my weird breathing lol.
She asked me what my fears were.
I told her that the first one I told them when I first started the experience was probably losing a loved one, but the most recent one I had right now was gaining weight.
I think she asked me why, to which I responded that I’ve been super heavy before and I hated the way I looked. I’ve been super thin, and I loved the way I looked. I told her I just felt more insecure and unattractive when I weighed more versus less.
She asked me why I felt that way and I told her I looked better lighter weights, and I thought I just looked more attractive and that people would like me more in general.
She asked what I think besides losing weight would fix that.
I said being kinder to myself, focusing on speaking nicer to and loving myself.
She said that she felt that that was a true answer.
Then I said I hope so, meaning that I hope If I actually did it that it would hopefully work.
And then she said you can stop now and hung up .